The Highchair
We're still plugging along with packing, not going nearly as fast as I would like, but it's been difficult trying to pack things we're still using! We did get rid of some furniture this past week which has cleared up some space for what I hope is a packing room/packed box storage. My dream is to be fantastically organized so our move can be smooth. Thus far it's been a bumpy mess filled with procrastination, but I'm still hoping for a turnaround!
While purging, we've been obviously looking at items we no longer need. One such item is an old wooden highchair I bought off of a nice couple who were moving and no longer needed it. My first thought for it was not necessarily for myself and a future baby. We were trying to raise money for our mission trip to Greece and I thought it would be an easy makeover that I could try and sell. I imagined a bright color with a soft, padded seat cover in a fun pattern. But it never happened.
Then one day I was almost certain I was going to have a positive pregnancy test. I had done acupuncture for weeks and was brimming with pre-pregnancy symptoms. Instead of redoing the chair to sell, we would be able to keep it and use! But test after test was quickly negative. And while I would have thought the highchair would have been an awful reminder, instead it became a beacon of hope. Surely purchasing this highchair was no accident! Every month I went through the routine of tracking and everything that goes with it. And seeing the chair would bring hope that maybe this month would be it. After so long of the same disappointment I needed a break. So now the poor highchair is a catch all for a random assortment of things. So the question became whether or not to pack it and bring with us, or let it move on to another family that could put it to good use.
I don't want to put my hope in any thing, highchair or otherwise. I want it to rest in God and His promises only. I know that some day I will be a mother, even if it's not as soon as I would like, or in what capacity, and that's okay. So for now I'll hope it goes to someone who needs it!
