Don’t Let Your Fear Decide Your Fate
This is my PSA on what happens when you let your insecurity win. The photo above is my Florida Esthetician license. I had one about 12 years ago, after I finished school here. It was one of the best times of my life. I met awesome friends I still have today, loved learning and got to experience life away from the town I grew up in. I passed my state boards with flying colors (👈🏻 what does that even mean??) and went back home, excited to start my career. I started the 2 step reciprocity process of getting my PA license. I passed the practical exam (thanks Kelly Jane, you were a lovely and patient model!) and moved on to the computerized “book” test. And failed. So I doubled down on the studying, made another appointment... And failed again. My confidence was shot and even though I said I would at the time, I never made another appointment to try again. That was the biggest fail. I let all my fears and insecurities overpower the desire to do something I love. How many times have you done the same? That little voice in your head telling you you’re not smart enough for that school, to pass that test 🤚🏻. Not good enough for that person/relationship 🤚🏻, or even worse not good enough for anyone else so you stay with that person/relationship, even when you know it’s not healthy 🤚🏻🤚🏻🤚🏻. Failure ✔️ Rejection ✔️ Past trauma ✔️ Self-sabotaging ✔️ Loneliness ✔️ Perfectionism ✔️ Body issues ✔️ I could go on.. And insecurity comes out differently in everyone. Shyness ✔️ Humor ✔️ Bragging ✔️ Not wanting to admit wrong ✔️ Trying to hold onto control ✔️ I could go on.. But you are valuable. You weren’t created for fear or insecurity. And fear isn’t always bad. Insecurity isn’t always bad. But it should never be the weight around your ankle that drags you down.
This ended up way longer than I originally intended, and all over the place (#imnotagreatblogger #insecurityexample), but I want to leave with this.. If your fear or insecurity is minimal, or it feels enormous, if you’re surrounded by support, or you feel alone even surrounded, whatever you believe about yourself, whatever the world tries to tell you are, or aren’t...don’t let your thoughts create the lie you end up believing. I might be a random person behind a blog, or I might know you somehow, but either way, if you need to vent, need encouragement or just a listening ear. If you think no one understands or that the world would be better off without you, please reach out. You are so much more than the negative thoughts, and so much more loved that you’ll ever know 💛
